pressure

stop the pressure already!(btw this is post #40, one away from lucky number 41! how fitting that psot 41 will likely be my first in DC.....)

m needs to stop asking about the tix and plans...i do kinda like it though but i just need to get my bearrings set in dc first and THEN i will start thinking about plans and wht im gonna do on the weekends. im just not that far ahead yet, and idk wht my roomies are gonna want to do...so yea..

i also feel pressure about my internship. pressure to do well and speak arabic. idk y i am so worried about arabic. for all i kno they wont even care. i guess its just the only thing i can really prepare for at this point. im VERY happy about my wardrobe coming in. it may be a little much but i love suits and dressing up. just not gonna be fun in that dc humidity...

speakking of weather....we are suppose to be in a hurricane my first day in DC....yay. wht r the chances that this would happen...at least its not suppose to hit on my movein day,that would be thhe worst

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worst, wort. got my wort removed to day(like my seways today?) got local antethic....i cant spell....novacane...thats not even spelled right either. fuck it. all i felt was pressure when he moved my hand. wierd to think he was setting my skin on fire and i couldnt even tell at all.... its a large crater in my skin now...looks kinda wierd and really hurts. but more mlike oint pain and not really from the open wound...odd. feels like i have a broken finger more than a gash of skin removed.

i believe im all packed up.....need to check my list. i almost forgot my bill box which was on my list and i still missed it...i feel like i packed so quickly and unthoroughly....just threw stuff in bags and not really keeping track. more nervous about forgetting something this year than in years past i feel.... i also feel like im not taking my time and just being lazy about it. blah....but i also feel ive done this enough to know wht i need. also forgot my printer alslo...........list looks complete. just need to order a padfolio now...

i like how my blog is basically just me tghinking outloud, but not really outloud. typing out. its silent so i cant say "out loud".....interesting....wht would you say then? typing out my thoughts? thats makes sense i suppose...ill come back to that.

lets just say im paranoid

all done! bass! biss! whtever