pressure

stop the pressure already!(btw this is post #40, one away from lucky number 41! how fitting that psot 41 will likely be my first in DC.....)

m needs to stop asking about the tix and plans...i do kinda like it though but i just need to get my bearrings set in dc first and THEN i will start thinking about plans and wht im gonna do on the weekends. im just not that far ahead yet, and idk wht my roomies are gonna want to do...so yea..

i also feel pressure about my internship. pressure to do well and speak arabic. idk y i am so worried about arabic. for all i kno they wont even care. i guess its just the only thing i can really prepare for at this point. im VERY happy about my wardrobe coming in. it may be a little much but i love suits and dressing up. just not gonna be fun in that dc humidity...

speakking of weather....we are suppose to be in a hurricane my first day in DC....yay. wht r the chances that this would happen...at least its not suppose to hit on my movein day,that would be thhe worst

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worst, wort. got my wort removed to day(like my seways today?) got local antethic....i cant spell....novacane...thats not even spelled right either. fuck it. all i felt was pressure when he moved my hand. wierd to think he was setting my skin on fire and i couldnt even tell at all.... its a large crater in my skin now...looks kinda wierd and really hurts. but more mlike oint pain and not really from the open wound...odd. feels like i have a broken finger more than a gash of skin removed.

i believe im all packed up.....need to check my list. i almost forgot my bill box which was on my list and i still missed it...i feel like i packed so quickly and unthoroughly....just threw stuff in bags and not really keeping track. more nervous about forgetting something this year than in years past i feel.... i also feel like im not taking my time and just being lazy about it. blah....but i also feel ive done this enough to know wht i need. also forgot my printer alslo...........list looks complete. just need to order a padfolio now...

i like how my blog is basically just me tghinking outloud, but not really outloud. typing out. its silent so i cant say "out loud".....interesting....wht would you say then? typing out my thoughts? thats makes sense i suppose...ill come back to that.

lets just say im paranoid

all done! bass! biss! whtever

boxes

hobby boxes, packing boxes, and everything u own in the one on the left.....that is the stupidest lyric ever.

i still wish i had more money for hobby boxes. reading about the new products and they break everything down by box cuz that wht the hardcore collectors do. buy boxes. you get an idea of pack odds but still. i enjoy buying packs and opening a box would be like an uber pack! so many chance for sweet cards and there is always a guarenteee for a good one. im still looking at boxes online but they aint cheap. theres a powerplay im looking at but i need to find its odds and features somewhere online....ill do that now.....brb

well it looks like ill get a jersey card, 6 rookies and maybe a parrallel of sorts. not terrible for $25 considering thats how much victory boxes go for and they dont give you an memorabilia. the problem is there isnt a ton of great rookies that season and its before kane and toews.....but still could be fun. maybe ill ship it to my DC address. hopefully he will relist the item. still a delone carter jsy auto with no bids....

packing....i hate it. really dont want to do it. you can tell cuz i didnt do any today. dont want to. just want to leave and not worry about bringing everything. speaking of which i still need to write my list out....

just wrote a list out. pretty good i think. makes it seem like i have a ton of shit...maybe i do. but it better all fit. hope i dont forget anything and get too narrow minded on the list. have to remember other stuff thats not on it yet.....ill be adding to it as the days go by.

packing is just tedious and annoying and tiring. i dont want to do it again and again and again. blah.....college sux for this. but DC is most def gonna be worth it. gonna turn 21 and its gonna b great. AH i just wanna go already but now that im leaving in 2 days im like freaking out and getting nervous that im leaving lisel again. i ennjoyed it here despite the fact that this was probably one of my more forgetable summers. no six flags or dunes. b problems. too many video games. not seeing friends as much. just not the same you kno. hope dc makes up for it.

still pissed at myself for missing the national. ive gotten into cards more as of lot and spending more money. well at least on single cards. i kno wht i want. im very disappointed i didnt bid on the toews rookie materials. guess i just wasnt feeling it tonight.

today had perfect weather. around 80 with cool breeze and no humidity. went out shopping(got a great deal, 2 express shhirts and a belt for $90), frolfing, running. had a good day considering hjow lazy i am and that i dont see anyone. was disappointed not to see al. go to talk to al again. o well. was too late i guess.

still playing lots of bad company 2. still fun and fresh cuz destrucible environments! COD would be perfect to me if it just added destruction. it changes everything and makes MW2 look childish and dated. now im excitied for BF3 and will amybe actually preorder it to get bonus shit. BC2 is still like a 9 or 9.5 in my book. one of my favorites. probably most favorite for multiplayer. i just need new maps but i aint paying for a rental. speaking of which i cant forget to return it...........

later homies and remember....sstraight cash homie

early

so im in bed early tonight. just got bored in the basement and nothing good on tv....maybe ill wonder out again later but idk. its only 1230.....im so lame, so bored. just want to finally leave. want to just get on with it alrready. cant believe she is leaving in a few days and ive hardly been able to c her. miss her alot and im kinda disappointed cuz i thought she would actually want to c me more.....i want the dunes or something at least but i doubt it. shes working until she leaves of course. no surprise there and i have no idea wht she does everyday now................god dammit i still hate this and this will hinder my experiences.........i dont want to b held back. just not a good situation at the moment....fuck you the situation

there has been alot of sweet stuff on ebay as of late. lots of auctions i have been active in but no wins yet. still got the big dog, kane ultimate, ending tomorrow. the kaner cup card sky rocketed, sweet shot too high, and rookie materials a little more than i would like to spend. sux.....no great deals yet, afraid im gonna have to overspend on the kaner ultimate also but im a little more willing since i havnt spent any dough yet on the previous auctions. i want something for my time spent on ebay as of late.....

got lots of shit to do tomorrow since its monday and places r open. one is to get a new deoderant cuz i stink. this new organic crap doesnt do shit. i need axe or oldspice again. faxes, laundry, calling, shopping....all sorts of good stuff. running also cuz i didnt today. legs r actually sore today, could tell i ran more yesterday. speaking of which i need to calculate my mileage....

just did it on google maps...only 2.5 yesterday. most def thought i was closer to 3mi. o well. still gonna do it cuz it was a funnier route and a little differnt. gotta keep working. also gotta keep on the arabic...nneed to review before i leave more. dammit......

victimized

maybe not the best word for wwhat im trying to describe but just the first i thought of. why does everyone jump at the opportunity to shoot someone down? to put them down or make them look stupid or more embareessed. i almost exploded at work today when everyone was just making fun of eachother and just pouncing everytime someone messed up. yes, i notice it more when they are doing it to me and maybe im guilty of doing it also. but it still is kind of ridiculous. our whole generation and society kinda just wants to make itself feel better by putting others down. cant stand it anymore. this is another reason y i wanted to leave the shack yeas ago. we can never say anything sincerely nice anymore. that is apparently too hard or embaressing these days. i just notice it so much with b and work. they just tease too much, always going too far. maybe ther is more bullying in the world thgat i refused to see. though the stupid "no bullying" sign in lhs is not going to cut it. its just built in at this point and part of daily life. im sure the teachers even take part in it.

it was great to see dave and joe tonight. havent seen them in forever. felt bad about double booking tonight but hopefully she isnt too upset. landslide is still the greatest game. always so fun with whoever you play with.

cant wait for some of these ebay auctions to end! got some great stuff lined up for the next week almost and really hoping to snag some great deals to complete my kane/toews jersey collection. i kinda want them to have matching cards. gotta find a kane sweet shot is available. i guess my recent influx in work hours and great checks has free myself alittle on ebay and allowing me to finally cut some real deals and buy something nice for myself this summer. feeels good and i should still have plenty in the bank. good times.

gotta do another schedule soon....need to find everyones last days again.............fuckin A

the difference between extraordinary and ordinary is that little extra.

long time no see blogging world. i sometimes wish my blog was more directed. like a blog just about sports, or just about the world of collecting. but then i would feel i wouldnt always have stuff to talk about....but i do today. major wright, convention, money spending.

i gotta say im pretty stoked about seeing major wright at the top of the free saftey depth chart. so stoked that i want to buy a jersey asap! i loved it when the bears drafted him last year. as he put on my all time favorite hit on oklahoma in the national championship. rocked em! i wanted to see him more last year and i will now. mike holmes made the roster. woo! i guess. he was at the aabsolute bottom of the chart but ill take it. depth special teams guy for now. also delone carter is getting some hype as a goalline power back for the colts. i was also surprised to see chester taylor ahead of marion barber on the depth charrt. may not mean anything but still surprised considering cester was considered a bust of a FA. also good to see roy willaims at the top.

kinda pissed i missed the national convention this last week. guess i kinda feel behind on the collecting world this year. really pissed guess its the big one thats only in town every 4/5 years. bbut i am looking forward to the suntimes show in november. most def be at that one, as bapes said it is pretty sweet, the lineup looked great online. http://www.mountedmemoriesshows.com/shop.aspx?flag=Category&criteria=1294 

this whole convention talk and lottery talk has made me REALLY wish i had more money to spend on collecting. if i had a dedicated percent of income to it, i would have so much more cool stuff if i just moved my budget up or won the lottery. its a great way to spend money that could be considered a waste! woo! but the only savin grace is that there are oother collectors out there willing to buy your shit if you ever needed cash. not as good as stocks or investing but wht the hey. y not?  also, if i had more money my collecting blog would be possible. then i would be about to try out more of the new products and packs. also better mentor the market and prices. i guess i just would love to review boxes or packs more. and try more packs in different sports. now i really am only willing to spend money on hockey packs. maybe illl try a football one. as i am getting more into football trading. idk y baseball jsut cant hold my attention....hockey always does. i lvoe my new mike willaims patch and ernie davis jersey....really getting me stocked on the football i guess. along with major wrights promotion. just getting me syched for the season! i also cant wait for another fantasy draft. im getting th itch. need my dad or work to pull through soon. cuz i kinda am leaving soonish.

also felt great to add woodrowm wilson center to amployer on FB.

wedding. hgavnt talked about it much, and dont feel like it much right now. i REALLY enjoyed myself as the bridal party was so much fun to hang out with. really made it great. locations were great and no one got stupid drunk.....woo! great fun time without being too emotional. just gointh theough the motions and enjoying time. also great to be a t a wedding with YOUR people, so its all the ppl you want to actually talk to.

Bestest

a toast

is kinda hard to wirte. i wrote a rather vague one that will probably have to be rewritten. or at least the end. its also a little short so i may need to aadd on to get the message through.

still havent fixed my laptop yet....just procrastinating i guess. i also forgot the process so i need to ask again. something like delete unwanted programs, scan, then reset to previous day. idk how to reset it so i will have to find that out. its been like a week so idk.

feel like im going to bed so early. so unsatisfied. idk wht to do on the internet till i fall asleep...any ideas? its only 1230...not even. sux. bore as always. ppl suck. works ok. lots of hours as of late. wedding. yay. ppl changing my fb.

even writting this is annoying and boring....i also need to shave. so scratchy

it was the best of days, it was the worst of days

well it hasnt been all sunshine and unicorns as of late: laptop has a virus, b, my hair, wedding speech, always bored and lazy.
those are the bad things.
good things?
its august so almost DC, got an internship, hairs not all bad, working more, more money, ebay stuff, fantasy football season, kasias got a great place.
thats the good stuff i suppose.

saw captain america today. id give it 2.5 stars out of 4. entertaining and exciting. does well with not taking itself too seriously and a nice lead into avengers.
watched take the money and runt onight. fucking sucked. worst execution possible on a great idea. there is so much potential to the idea, but they ruin it with stupid rules and scripted moments. so so so disappinted. so boring and i hated it from beginning to end. i hope its cancelled asap.

i dont realy feel like expanding on my issues from the beginning but basically im really bored all of the time and down on myself. just not in a happy place at the moment.

got to write a speech soon and i have no material.........great.....

i miss golfing for free. i need to get out more like now. i need golf sadly right now. i hate spending the money and mom wont go. gahg

restarted playing modern warfare2. pretty sweet still but i SOOO miss being able to blow away cover like in BC2. bc2 was great in multiplayer for that reason and it adds so many dynamics u miss in mw2. also faggot kids keep sending me voice messages to boost or try out or whtever gay shit. they r all like 12 also. outstanding.

work has been decs. at least i have that.

couldnt draft for shit last night. didnt get a single RB i was interested in. no one came to me. i got nothing there. pissed me off all night and happened like 4 times. i needto get a waiver wire steal. also found it interesting that tony gonzalez went undrafted, boy did he fall hard.

i still fucking HATE teen mom, just saying.

i need to leave asap. i need DC now, i need to get out of this town and situation. i need it so badly. its all that i want and for my gf to talk to me again............ :(